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I have picked up some books to read these few days, to relieve some stress.

The current read is “Dignity & Grace of Ageing” by Kua Ee Heok. I must say that it is an interesting one. It manages to capture my attention throughout the story, slowly and surely educating me on Alzheimer’s disease, various issues of aging, psycho-emotional pain of seeing how things have totally changed throughout his lifetime, how fearful it can be when one is aging in a society that is elitist and ageist in its purest nature.

Yes. Like most of you have already known, generally I do not have much appreciation for books except those of non-fictional, educational ones. This is one of those rare ones that i enjoy consuming, and like what is shared in the book, reading fictional books does make you more empathetic. One can literally feel for the character whose past contributions are all ignored and forgotten by the newer generations, claiming that those contributions are all just history and insignificant when compared to the important issues at hand.

I am glad to discover such a gem in Bedok Library.

It’s already July!

Half of the year has passed.

I must say that I am displeased and disappointed at myself for the poor performance this half year.

A lot have been left unaccomplished. A lot could have been done better.

It is just pure frustrating!

You know what? It is the guilt! The guilt that is hardest to deal with.

At least I am glad that there is improvement. Vast improvement when compared with the past year Q1 & Q2.

Lesson learnt.

I must be more pro-active than ever!

I must focus more on self-leadership before self-management, without neglecting either.

These 2 comic strips sum up what i used to be struggling.

And sadly, i have drawn the same conclusion as Dilbert too.

Oh well…

I have learnt never to be afraid to discard old paradigm

Sometimes, i would just be really unhappy at myself for being unable to do things well and properly.

Another limitation.

Another barrier.

Another challenge for me.

I know i can do it. But i just need to believe in myself. It is hard. Such irony.

I will have to recollect myself and build myself up again.

Once again, i shall start learning! And move on!

Its still the same.

I still dread school.

It drains hell lot of energy from me, leaving me feeling extremely defeated and helpless.

Sem 5 is a bad sem. I hope things will improve after the term break.

This shall pass too. It will.

It is hard to achieve perfection.

But it can be hard to accept my imperfection too.

It’s an experience.

Learning to accept my limitation and imperfection and move on.